A moment of thought

Ask "How" instead of "Why"

Well hello again... Something still running in my mind. I believe it must be the hormon working. I supposed to be tired after hockey practice. But since the coaches are suck and I feel myself lately nothing developed from my skill or whatsoever. I feel a little bit mad.

Why I not played well, why they didnt do what I did, why nobody doing this, why me, why the hell he did that to me, why he doesn't feel the same,why why why...

So I just realized that double yu ejh way question keep bring me in negative mind. And it wasting my time also exhausting. 

Therefore I am trying to change my mind to ask How instead of Why. How to play good, how to make people do this, how to make your life happy and not care what other think, and so many other how. I think it more positive and the brain received it as a way to more think creatively.

So yeah instead of asking why he didn't ask me to going out better ask how to  spend the weekend more fun. I believe the brain will find a way. Lol :p

Buenos noches amigos! Te amo xxx

Ello

Ps: typing this while listening foo fighter - learn to fly :D

27 minutes left before leaving 26

I had a wonderful year on my 26 years old. 

I met many awesome people lately who keep me inspired.

I visited many wonderful places.

I share many laugh, memories, experiences and knowledge.

I developed my skill.

I was in love in beautiful heart.

Also was broken hearted wisely. Heheheheh.

Was a wonderful year. Am in peak moment. I tho.

Now... Well actually am not really sure what will hapenned next. 

Am in dark. Nothing grey anymore. But completely dark. 

So before leaving my 26 years old. May I skip tomorrow... Please. 

Postingan Lagi Kangen

Biasanya kalo posting jam segini ini kalo dulu itu pas lagi lembur dan males ngerjain kerjaan. Lemburpun karena udah masuk peak season dan lembur supaya dibilang auditor banget. Hahahah

Engga deng. Biasanya lembur karena buat nemenin senior atau manajer karena data baru dikasih setelah jam 5 sore T_T.

Mumpung belom ngantuk dan lagi mau nyampah.. duile.. sekali-kali lah posting yang bener dikit :p

Hahaha iya nih saya lagi kangen. Hmm bukan kangen sama si mantan sih. Tapii samaaa hmmm.. kasih tau gak yah :p ...

Eh tapi btw yah.. bukannya saya mau sok tough atau gimana yah. Tapi saya agak heran aja sama keputusan yang saya ambil kemaren. To be honest sebelumnya sih udah pernah putus sama si doi. Tapi waktu itu asa sediiiihh banget pas abis putus. Nyesel. Dan akhirnya ujung-ujungnya sih balikan.

But this time I feel different. So easy to let him go. Dan yakin banget kalo itu adalah yang terbaik.

So I think every decision that made by positive believe will follow with positive attitude. (naon sih.. asa ga nyambung :| )

Intinya mah ga sesendu dulu lah. 

Tapi pasti ada sih rasa-rasa kangen pengen punya pasangan lagi. Jujur ga boong sih kalo saya suka #sedih kalo liat temen-temen saya posting atau cerita yang unyu - unyu pas tanggal 14 Februari kemarin. Kan akoh mupeng gaaess..

Trus yah si temen saya yang jadi tempat tong sampah sekarang lagi deket sama orang lain.. Dan mendadak saya jadi sebel (baca: ngiri).

Dan lagi si dia yang saya kangenin entah kenapa bikin pengen jadi............... hufftt.

Ya sudahlah.

Mungkin si universe lagi becanda sama sayah. Tapi jangan terlalu jayus yah becandaanya. Kadang saya suka ga mood sama becanda yang agak - agak kinky. 

Nite

xxx

The Perk of Being Afraid

When I was a kid am afraid of meeting new people. First day at school I will be freaking out so much. I still remember when my aunt dragged me on my 1st day in my kindergarten. I was sooo freaking out with my new teacher. I cried a lot and was begging to go home. And I ran away from school until my aunt caught me and calmed me, she told it's ok and do not be afraid.

Such a drama, heehhehe.

So I think everyone doing the same thing. They are afraid of something.
You look for a job so you can get money for it because you afraid of having no money.
But you work so hard to get more money because you afraid you wont get what you dream for.
Or you work so hard until late of night, so when you back home you wont feel alone because you have to sleep for work on the next day.

In my case that I just realized:
I run a lot because I am afraid getting stressed of my worries and questions.
I laugh and smile a lot because I am afraid that people will know my worries and problems.
I worship to Allah because I am afraid what Al-Quran said about judgement day. (selain itu kewajiban sih yahh :p)
hemm what else..
Ah..
I wake up in the morning and rushing to office because am afraid if I often come late my boss wont like me and s/he will asked the HR to fired me. Mean while I need the money.
(hehehe)
I hang out with my friends because I was afraid feeling alone.

Nothing wrong being afraid, I thought. Also nothing wrong to beat your fear.
The way you face it will shown your ability in surviving this life.

Anyway Happy 2015 Peeps!

PS:
I just had my 30K epic trail run yesterday. So actually my legs are still sore now then suddenly my head feel dizzy. Signal for some sugar.
Gnight!
xxx
ello