When I was young I always excited about making new resolution(s) for new year. But now.. I even not interested. Have no idea whats the goal for next year what to reach next year.
Recap for this year so far started life with super awful feeling! I felt like a crap. Knocked down and feel powerless. How a super broken heart can destroy your dream. Stupidly made myself being hurted again and again. Felt sooo let down. I tho this year will be an awful one.
But I fought that. Have you ever heard "fake it till you make it" ? That is exactly what I did. Faking the smile. Fight the pain inside of my heart.
Until I make and foun my own happiness again. By a simple one and an easy way to be happy again.
Until I really dont care what life had done to me. It just piece of shit of life that I need to face.
So what will I do for next year?
I might have plans to do but it just because it already preparing that from this year.
Like running and hockey.
But for career, life, and love. I think I wont plan anything special or go for something great or else.
Lets play an easy and simple game of life. Because at the end nothing to worry about.
What goes around comes around.
Oh actually I have a promise that I will do this year but I feel not ready yet. Hopefully will do that next year. *collecting my guts *gleg
Xxx
Ello
