Find The Good in Goodbye

It might be the boldest decision that I ever made.

Decision that I hope will be the best for us.

I might be unable to said it.

But I feel relieved when finally told it to you.

I am really sorry if this decision make you sad or mad. But I can not stop thinking about this.

This decision also for your good. To aim all your dreams and goals.

Thank you very much for everything that you did in this relationship.

I will never forget the way you wait me in the middle of the night working over time. The way you are soo damn patient with me, with all my ego and selfishness. And everything you did and taught me.

I wont cry anymore.

Let us move on together. And let we start everything with our own feet.

Whatever will be. Will be.

Once again thank you S for the last beautiful 46 months togetherness.

So sorry if it has to end. I do really sorry.

Not A Well Play Plan

Have you ever feel like the world is rushing you?

To do this to do that

Following up this and that and shit.

And you feel like a man just get out from a cave. You know nothing and your brain is still in the middle of nowhere.

Hell yeah.

This Friday.. Last 2 hours before 5:30pm (coz I came late today). Still in mourn, shock, stress, sad, sad, sad feeling I decided to head to office. Try to move on that my team failed in National Championship. Didn't make any semifinal. Feel wasted because am soo ready for this tournament and also believe that my team are the best team ever.

Buuut reality suck! 

We lost and played terribly. All the worst feeling in the world came. I was angry, mad, sad. I want to scream. It can't be like this. Can't be like this.

We will played today on semi. We already have the coolest jersey for the games until final day. We already practicing  about this shit for a year. We are better than them. We have best person in team.

Well slap me man... Losing is always suck. Am still in denial. Let's party then. 

Whoop whoop

Cheer up El. Lets move on and face another probs

isport dot com

Well.. due to my preps for Field Hockey National Championship (Kejurnas), I was searching about defending theory for field hockey.

Since I've been almost 10 years as defender I still have difficulty when in my defending I was outnumbered and my team mates are still on forward position and late to come down.

So this link was enlighten me to what to do and not to do when in defend by theoretically.

And there is one sentence that I love in this article. 

"As a defender, it is more important to play smart than to play hard"

1. How to play defense in field hockey.

http://fieldhockey.isport.com/fieldhockey-guides/how-to-play-defense-in-field-hockey

2. How to Defend When  Outnumbered in Field Hockey

http://fieldhockey.isport.com/fieldhockey-guides/how-to-defend-when-outnumbered-in-field-hockey

Also in isport.com there are many sport tips and trick. From soccer, rugby, lacrose, hockey, running until yoga. Also it provide you from beginner until advance skill level. Gotta stick around with this website whole day and luckily my boss is out of office for a week. Wohoooo :P

People often give credit to the attackers when the team wins and blame the defense when the team loses. But anyone who knows the sport will tell you that a good offense stems from a strong defense.

Read more at: http://fieldhockey.isport.com/fieldhockey-guides/how-to-play-defense-in-field-hockey

Ps: the tournament about less than a week. Wish us LUCK!

End of Year

If back to couple of years ago writing "End of Year" means ... Audit period will be started ASAP!

Means stock taking to warehouse (which is my favorite audit procedure), preparing working paper, asking the latest trial balance, never ending over time and else. (Maannn... how I missed my time as an auditor!)

So... December is coming. Means new year or 2015 are few more days. Myself actually not so excited about end of year. Especially this year. Yep. Too many things that I didnt accomplish. But actually a loot of thing happened in my life in this 2014. Buuuutt I dont know.. just lack of a satisfaction for me. 

Nothing much different compare to last year. Still have no hope about what I want.

 I dont know.

Maybe I just feel a little bit tired lately with hockey practice and stuffs. Wake up at 4am and practice again at night in the whole week. And also I feel like everyone was close to me is stepping away from me. 

Yeah. Am over thinking again. And again.

I need a break. Or an escape.

Did someone say beach? or mountain also sounds awesome....

xxx

Me miss my normal life. Woke up late and still have time to night run or long run in weekend.

And oh.. I missed the trail run with my friends in Mt. Pancar, Sentul. Pffftttttt.