Friday, September 18, 2015

Long Term Goal

Nah this post wont tell ya about my long term goals and how I supposed to reach it.

One thing that I want to tell you is... I do not have believe in any long term-ish what ever. Long term goal, long distance relation, long term relationship. Bla bla bla.

Where am I in next 5, 7, 8, 10 years later? I mean seriously... Even my plans right now already ruined and you fricking asked me about that?

I even cant dream about my future will be. I even afraid with my future to be honest. 

I dont believe in long term plan. No more. 
And I probably hate it.

When I am planning my future... The failed one keep monstering me all the time. So I quit. I quit being a smart ass.

I just want to live now. I dont believe with my future lately. I lost my confidence about my future but I covered it well. Because humab looove to hearing a good bluffing.

Dont you worry bout it. Well none care actually Ell ;)

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Dopest Month So Far: August 2015

Having a rough experience on the early year and almost decided it will be a suckest year ever.

But on last August.. I did enjoy every single time of it. :)

First.
Badass mountain I ever climb. Rinjani

And what makes it more fun.. Climbed it your mega best friends in the world. 

Second.
Got prize for a race! Yaayyy..
I was rank 10th for 10K race just a week before my marathon. Hahaha sick!
Rank 10

Third.
Finished my 2nd marathon faster than my target!
Dope medal huh?

That was my top 3 moment in 2015 so far. Yaaayyy :D

And I feel life much getting better lately. I hope I wont forget how grateful I am lately. Thank you Allah for EVERYTHING!! Ok I must stop before I start crying :p

Xxx
Ello

Saturday, September 12, 2015

It Paid Off Man!

Ok.. Ive just finished cleaning my closet for almost 2 hours. And glad that I decided throw all my "rare to wear" clothes. Aftet that I have no mood for buying new clothes again. 

Alsooo.. I have a loooott off jersey from hockey and a loooott off running clothes from some race. And now I have two boxes. One for hockey and one for running. Pheewww. 

Well back to two weeks ago at the end of  August I just finished my official marathon. Proudly said that I am marathon finisher with sub 4:30 time. I finished my 2nd Bali Marathon in 4 hours 23 minutes 37 seconds. Heheh.. Compare to my 1st marathon I was finished at 5 hours 7 minutes ish. 

For this marathon I took some coaching from my previous running coach from runiversity by indo runners. His name is Budi. He mentoring me during the training and always pushing me to give more along the program. 

Every week I ran interval twice at night and long run in every Sunday morning. But sometime I still keep practice hockey to keep tune up with the hockey skill. 

The training was super exhausted. I knew the marathon training wasnt easy, it need a commitment. And from the earlier I already set to finished the marathon at 4:30 minutes. From the beginning not pretty sure. But my 10k keep showing improvement. So it boost my confidence a little. 

On the race day I tried to prepare everything. Fueling and hydration and everything. Counting the split time so I can manage my energy. At the first 20km everything was on target. Well actually I managed to run at pace 5:40-5:58. Nailed the first hill. But after the 2nd hill at   28-30km ish my legs feel sore. Feel something wrong on my left foot. The sock not on the right place. Also the cramp hitted my knee. But when I found nearest water station and got iced at my right knee it much much better. But the pace started slow down. Luckily still on my target. Deep inside my heart I wish that I could finish 4:15:00 but my cramp was on again :|.

But finished faster than my target was really shocked me. I was about to cry since I can believe that I made it. The sacrifice, sweat, tears and everything already paid off when I entered the finish line. You maybe never understand the joy of it but I wont stop after this. 


The time probably not as good as the athletic athlete. Well once again as an avid runner who just took a deep consideration in running this finished time showed everything. And I can do more better than this if I want and determined.

Funny thing was when my mom asked me about the race. She asked "did I win?" And I said "no..." She cheered me and said "it is ok.. Keep the spirit on" sooo that's mean an approval for still  running? :D

Xxx
Ello