Dear 2020,
You such a unique number and year. Before you started most of us planned something great and beautiful for 2020. Even we dreamt higher and bigger.
For myself 2020 at first would be a great year and a dreamy one! Got bold with my dream and finally saw the sign came very strong. But suddenly all fell apart. As if I was played and fooled.
Almost met a perfect guy but I was dreaming.... he's not that perfect.
Well like my life story in general... everything is almost...
But 2020... you thought me lately. yea lately... before I was hating you so much.
Lately you make me realize this year actually not that bad.
I feel I can breathe a little and not feel in a rush. Well after many arguments and some condition finally it works. Moreover when you live in old fashioned family.
This make me realize that I always have different way of think with common people in my life. That's why it's quite hard for me to find someone can sync with me.
Also lately I realized that in previous relationships I kept degrading myself just because I dont want to lose my partner at that time. Well it took times to realize it. It was felt right at that time but after that I realized it was such a fool and degrading myself. Well penyesalan selalu datang belakangan bukan?.
At least this year I reduce all the toxicity circle, the fake friends, cutting off people and threw up all negativity.
Smaller my circle but open with the new positivity and met new friends felt so great and fresh to see another point of view.
Also start thinking it's ok to be alone instead of keep bumping with the wrong person all the time.
Alone is a part of game for stupid thing called love.
